Tuesday, April 6, 2010
My week thus far
Yep, that's about how I feel, pulled in a bunch of directions, all at once. Do I feel elated for my younger-older brother in law's marriage, or do I feel horribly upset about the separation of a couple that have been closer to me at times than much of my own family? Do I feel so stressed out that I may puke with all the writing stuff with deadlines this week, or do I feel ecstatic that there may be an end in sight? Do I feel horribly anguished for the couple that now has a child with a disability, or do I feel blessed to have been a part of their becoming a family? Do I feel stupendously proud of my little boy, who will most likely be starting kindergarten next fall, or like a failure because I'm so relieved to have less time with him after a week of spring break that left us both in tears? The answer is a resounding YES! to all of the above. Gah. It's the start of my annual dying-time, and this year is not looking like it will be a smooth one. It's been 15 years now, why does the saga seem to hit replay whenever I can handle it least? June fourth can't come soon enough right now. At least Black Out Stout is in season, although I may need some Absente soon if the emotional roller coaster continues to be this severe.